Silence is Golden

I avoid speaking your name in conversation,
throwing it to the air as if it were nothing
more than an assumption of you; it is my last
mode of defence. The last item of clothing
to discard before I realise I’m naked in public.

Because they can hear it in my voice. I know.
Even in that one short syllable that means
everything and nothing; your name is as common
as you are rare. As easy as you are not.
As simple as love should be, but never is.

But when I’m alone, I tie my tongue softly
round the familiar sound, as if pronouncing
with conviction the phonetics of desire
will cause time to pause just long enough
for the earth to hear me naming my loss.

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A Hundred Ways To Say Your Name (Tania De Rozario)

Sometimes I feel like I’m slowly floating away. I’m constantly looking for something to grab onto so I don’t lose myself.

- Pivot Point (Kasie West)

I get it now. I get it. The things you hope for the most are the things that destroy you in the end.

- Will Grayson (John Green and David Levithan)